I don't like to let people down, and I don't like to have to explain myself when I let people down. Therefore I try to make other people's expectations for me very low. I do this by not sharing my ideas and plans. I also try to be overly realistic about ideas and plans, which bascially is another way of saying pessimistic. It keeps things safe and comfortable for me. It is not a healthy habit, however.
So here's a few things I want to do in the near future:
1) I want to read less in quantity. This might not seem like a normal goal for improving one's self, so let me elaborate. I LOVE to read! I will put off my other responsibilities, obligations, family, friends, sleep, all in order to read a few more pages. So, I'd like to reduce the amount that I read so I can focus on more meaningful aspects of my life.
2) Also, I'd like to raise the bar on the types of materials that I read. I love fiction. It's my entertainment. My husband and I don't watch much TV. In fact, we don't even subscribe to any cable or satellite service. We don't watch movies in the theater really either, because it's another way we save money. So with Netflix and Redbox, we average about 2-4 movies a month. All this to explain why I read so much fiction for my entertainment. So in an attempt to read less fiction, I've read one biography recently, and I've just started another one. (We have had an antenna put up since I started writing this, so now we get free TV, which I equally love and hate. More on that at another time.)
3) Rather than think about and talk about interests that could turn into really good hobbies for me, I'm going to pursue them. In that regard, I'm reading a book about photography now. (I don't think this should count against me in my attempt to read less, because I'm trying to educate myself.)
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So I started writing the above post on March 10th. I've put off finishing and posting it because talking about other people's expectations for me is, well, an icky subject in my opinion. See! This is why I said in my "about myself" section that I need to stop worrying about what other people think!!!
Anyway, in the last 20 days, I've had plenty of thoughts to blog about bouncing around in my head, but have been reticent to blog about a new topic before finishing the above topic. SO I'M POSTING THIS to get past my mental block and move on.
So here's a few things I want to do in the near future:
1) I want to read less in quantity. This might not seem like a normal goal for improving one's self, so let me elaborate. I LOVE to read! I will put off my other responsibilities, obligations, family, friends, sleep, all in order to read a few more pages. So, I'd like to reduce the amount that I read so I can focus on more meaningful aspects of my life.
2) Also, I'd like to raise the bar on the types of materials that I read. I love fiction. It's my entertainment. My husband and I don't watch much TV. In fact, we don't even subscribe to any cable or satellite service. We don't watch movies in the theater really either, because it's another way we save money. So with Netflix and Redbox, we average about 2-4 movies a month. All this to explain why I read so much fiction for my entertainment. So in an attempt to read less fiction, I've read one biography recently, and I've just started another one. (We have had an antenna put up since I started writing this, so now we get free TV, which I equally love and hate. More on that at another time.)
3) Rather than think about and talk about interests that could turn into really good hobbies for me, I'm going to pursue them. In that regard, I'm reading a book about photography now. (I don't think this should count against me in my attempt to read less, because I'm trying to educate myself.)
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So I started writing the above post on March 10th. I've put off finishing and posting it because talking about other people's expectations for me is, well, an icky subject in my opinion. See! This is why I said in my "about myself" section that I need to stop worrying about what other people think!!!
Anyway, in the last 20 days, I've had plenty of thoughts to blog about bouncing around in my head, but have been reticent to blog about a new topic before finishing the above topic. SO I'M POSTING THIS to get past my mental block and move on.
Yes, biographies - they are like fiction and yet they feel superior. Unless they are Kitty Kelley, in which case I may judge you - but just a little.
ReplyDeleteDoing things instead of reading - hmmmm - I thought reading WAS doing something. I need to do something - anything rather than spend time on the internet reading about what other people are doing and feeling jealous.